“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” –Anais Nin
Hallie Swan, PCLC #48166
I have always felt very connected to Spirit. When I say Spirit, I mean something that lives inside and animates all of us, and which holds vast and profound creative potential. I believe all pain is a result of feeling cut off from this power, and that healing is a journey of remembering how to access it. I grew up in an upper middle class, predominantly white suburb that didn't reflect this power, which was very painful. I pursued many things in attempt to uncover that "something more" I knew to be inside. As a youth I pursued it through extreme and risky behavior including heavy substance use and disordered eating. Although misguided, the drive to connect with something deeper was there. In my early twenties, I had several mystical experiences of expanded consciousness. This combined with my first Vipassana meditation retreat in 2013 drew me away from extreme behavior, and towards the ultimate spiritual experience: accepting myself exactly as I was, and not running away from anything. This was the powerful experience I had been looking for. Today through various practices I continue to cultivate that deep and unavoiding connection with my self.
My life and work today draw from indigenous wisdom that stewards of various traditions have been gracious enough to share with me, my continued practice of Vipassana meditation, energy medicine, and metaphysics. My work is also influenced by my years of work as a mentor for transition-aged youth, which incorporated collectivist approaches to resourcing, restorative justice, and initiatory rites of passage.
In 2017 I received my Master’s degree in Integral Counseling psychology from the California Institute of Integral Studies. From this training I gained the clinical skills to work with clients in a way that transmutes psychic blocks and defenses and actually facilitates desired change. Today I work as Professional Counselor Candidate in Red Lodge, MT.
My work is invariably feminist, social and earth justice-oriented, and Earth-honoring.
Relevant Educational Experience:
- Restorative Justice
-Internal Family Systems with Richard Schwartz
-White activism: moving from fragility to resilience
-The Human Awareness Institute (workshops on Love, Intimacy, and Sexuality)
-MAPS (the Multidisciplinary Association for
-Spiritual Emergence and other Extraordinary
-Ecstatic Living Institute of Tantra